Looking back to 2008 in my posts I was sure ministry was right for me... Now I can't even make it to a church service. Where is the vision??? Where is the passion???
I'm sitting in the dark... Literally and figuratively. It's not that I've lost my faith. It's not that I don't believe that God has a plan... I just can't figure this funk I'm in out.
Maybe God is taking a break.... Nope that's not it. Maybe I'm just a selfish idiot that is only thinking of himself. << that's much more likely.
I used to think I had it all figured out. Now I can't seem to see a single foot step in front of me. I kinda feel like I'm looking for something, I just can't seem to figure out what "it" is that I am looking for.
I would like to think that I am waiting on God but truth is, He's waiting on me. Like a game of chess, it's my move.
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