Lost...

I'm not really sure what is going on. I'm dazed and confused... I'm lost. I feel like I'm playing a game of Marco & Polo, but Polo isn't responding.

Looking back to 2008 in my posts I was sure ministry was right for me... Now I can't even make it to a church service. Where is the vision??? Where is the passion???

I'm sitting in the dark... Literally and figuratively. It's not that I've lost my faith. It's not that I don't believe that God has a plan... I just can't figure this funk I'm in out.

Maybe God is taking a break.... Nope that's not it. Maybe I'm just a selfish idiot that is only thinking of himself. << that's much more likely.

I used to think I had it all figured out. Now I can't seem to see a single foot step in front of me. I kinda feel like I'm looking for something, I just can't seem to figure out what "it" is that I am looking for.

I would like to think that I am waiting on God but truth is, He's waiting on me. Like a game of chess, it's my move.

Shekinah

Shekinah: The dwelling or settling place of God's presence. Awesome term.

it seems like forever ago.

Hello friends and fellow bloggers. It seems as though it has been nearly a year since my last post.... that's too long so let me share with you a piece of what i have gone through in just the last few months. If you follow me on twitter ( Tim_Reed ) or on facebook you probably know that I have made it pretty clear that i am interested in getting healthy and losing weight. This past January i weighed in at a whopping 304lbs. That is twice the size as a "normal" person my height should be. So in efforts to not only lose weight and eat right just so i can take my shirt off comfortably at a swimming pool i have made it a point to have people support me. I feel it will be easier to lose weight that way. Just yesterday i did another "weigh in" and i am down to 290lbs. Pretty soon i will frolicking around without my shirt on and feeling sexier with my rock hard abs and solid core. My goal is to lose another 30 lbs before summer. solid. I have been taking "before and after" shots of myself and already i can see a difference. I am 4 weeks in right now. Wish me luck. and as for my short story/book.... still working on it.