Romans 12:2

It's kinda funny that sometimes the little things you do to change a room makes it so inviting. Crys and I bought some lamps and created symmetry with these lamps... we also created light. And well with the combination of the two, symmetry and light, it made the room much more inviting. And as Crystal said earlier, it's not just a place where we have to go and sleep, it is now a 'living space' and all because of straighting somethings out and adding light.

I don't know why I just told you all that. I guess it just made for a good start to a blog.

Now to "segway" to something that is really on my heart.

Hum, where to start....

A few months ago pastor John talked about a "spiritual agitation." When you feel in your heart that something is not right, and that "something" needs to change. His words have been resonating in my heart for a long time, and I am just now starting to see what God was trying to show me.

This several month process is kinda like my room... I wasn't happy with it, I was agitated that our room didn't look good. And just like my room I guess I just needed to straighten some things out and I needed to shine a little light on the depths of depravity in my own life.

There would be absolutely no time in this blog to write all this stuff down. But let me share with you just something briefly.

There on many great teachers of our day. Billy Graham, Mark Driscoll, our very own John Bishop, John Mark Comer, Phil Baker and well the list goes on and on...

Ever since I felt a calling on my life to become a pastor my #1 goal was to see lost people come to Christ, to see families healed, to see relationships grow, to see people of all ages and types get "on fire" for God... one problem. Myself.

God has recently shined down on this area of my life called "Selfishness." So while I am studying to be this "great teacher" and pastor, I am noticing this small hint of selfishness... like at some point i would like to see my face on a bill board or a poster or something. The problem is with that is that it is not about me, it is about God and His Glory alone.

I kinda feel that this is the reason that God has not been able to use this ministry that we have here in Gresham to it's fullest capacity. So I have decided to change... to start, I am writing this blog. To share my depravity with others and ask for forgiveness is the first step. I am praying that God takes this "selfishness" out of my life and I pray that He will heal me and help me to grow and learn to be a better teacher and pastor.

Romans 12:2 (NIV)
2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.